shallow
I think I project an image of being really airheaded and materialistic. I know it seems like all I talk about is what happened on True Blood on Sunday, what sort of things I can buy for the new apartment, or what type of clothes I like.
In actuality I have a lot of complex, conflicted and painful thoughts. The thing is, I don’t feel comfortable at all discussing myself with other people. I also come off as “bitchy” - I’ve been told this many times, but I think I’m just sarcastic because it’s easier than letting people in on what’s going on with me mentally. I don’t expect I will have many friends due to this aspect of my personality, but sometimes I wish there was an easier way to convince people I’m not an airhead. A way that didn’t involve voicing opinions about serious topics or revealing the truly depressed state of mind I’m in. I’m not going to go around quoting textbooks all day, but I do have interests other than clothes, products, and tv.
Then again, maybe I’m the only one who can’t see that I really am shallow.
